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Faith Wrestling

I was raided Christian. I’ve always felt different from others, like an outsider looking in. My mom mentioned to me once that while I was in the NICU she prayed the Holy Spirit would cover/protect me, hence the otherworldly sense I’ve had since I was little. It feels like being set apart, sealed as a believer before consciously coming to faith, converting, etc.

Fast forward decades. I am an adult and have gone through a bad church experience. I haven’t attended consistently since 2009. Yep, 10 years outside the box. It’s interesting stepping outside the Christianese world and glancing in. It’s like looking back at high school and remembering what was popular back then, recalling what you were like back in the day.

Honestly, I don’t know if I can return and trust the church again. My heart would love to, I miss the community aspect, but trusting other believers is a challenge. I haven’t read my Bible in a few years. Maybe I just need to take a step back, away from the verbiage that’s a first language to me.

I want to start from scratch. I still believe in God. I feel like part of the challenge is that Christiandom idolizes the Bible. God is bigger than the Bible, or any other book considered holy. I’ve also, wondered why other books that had been considered part of the cannon were removed, like the book of Enoch that connects the dots on so much. Is it a case of keeping non-clergy in the dark?

I’m still triggered by worship music. It’s sad because I have so many songs I love, but it’s just too, painful to hear them.

Do you struggle in a similar way? If so, feel free to comment or email me.

Book Review · Books

Get Weird

I’ve never considered myself normal by society’s standards. I was never part of the popular crowd growing up. I tried my best to fit in, but the popular kids were always snotty and mean. I always befriended the underdogs in my class.

I was the bookworm at school growing up. Ever since 2nd grade when reading independently took off I’ve always had a book with me. I enjoyed going to the school and local library. I was the nerd who never had the popular clothing brands.

Get Weird is about finding out what makes you weird, different, unique and owning it. It’s not easy when TV, society, social media is constantly blaring hype on what we supposedly need in our life. This book gives examples of those who have paved the way for letting their weirdness shine.

I received a complimentary copy of Get Weird by CJ Casciotta from Faith Words. Opinions expressed in this review are strictly my own. This review is sponsored by Faith Words. If you think outside the box, consider yourself weird, unique and quirky you will love this book.